drained..

Usually by the end of the day, all my energy, emotions, ambition, etc.. is drained..  As of late, it’s drained the minute I get up. My body feels so lifeless, and hard to function. I just want to curl up in bed and not move.
I’m having an allergic reaction to my Gabapentin meds, a nasty rash under my left breast. So I have to stop taking them. Fine with me, they weren’t helping anyways..  But it’s the added stress of MORE medical shit gone wrong with me is just exhausting me..
Having to live with this disease, and carry so much of it quietly so you do not  worry your loved ones around you, is emotionally tiring.. I feel as if, my body mind and soul just wants to peacefully rest…